Hmm what to write... Well I'm #24. All for #God #Positivity #Peace #Love #Harmony (all that good stuff)... I often find it difficult to make descriptions... I was never really good at summing myself up in a few words so maybe my blog will be able to do the describing for me. Readers, welcome :)

My will shall shape the future. Whether I fail or succeed shall be no man's doing but my own. I am the force; I can clear any obstacle before me or I can be lost in a maze. My choice; my responsibility; win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny

 

…thought I took one step
I took two back
I’m not even close this time
And that’s a fact

And I realize…

If you ask me how I’m doing, I would say I’m doing just fine. I would lie and say that you’re not on my mind…

I can’t invite him again
‘Cause he’ll go from a lover to a fighter and I’ll fight him again
So it’s over, but I told him to come over
Again I’m wasting time
But he’s always on my mind
I can’t let him go
Oh, he’s not the best, but he’s all that I know…

If I was my heart 
I’d rather be restless 
The second I stop the sleep catches up and I’m breathless 
This ache in my chest 
As my day is done now 
The dark covers me and I cannot run now 
My blood running cold 
I stand before him 
It’s all I can do to assure him 
When he comes to me 
I drip for him tonight 
Drowning in me we bathe under blue light 

His face in my dreams seizes my guts 
He floods me with dread 
Soaked in soul 
He swims in my eyes by the bed 
Pour myself over him 
Moon spilling in 
And I wake up alone 

Space Bound

We touch, I feel a rush, we clutch, it isn’t much
But it’s enough to make me wonder what’s in store for us
It’s lust, it’s torturous, you must be a sorceress
'Cause you just did the impossible, gained my trust

Don’t play games, it’d be dangerous if you fuck me over
'Cause if I get burnt, I'ma show ya what it's like to hurt
'Cause I've been treated like dirt befo' ya
And love is “evol”, spell it backwards, I’ll show ya

Nobody knows me, I’m cold, walk down this road all alone
It’s no one’s fault but my own, it’s the path I’ve chosen to go
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion whatsoever, so
Don’t ask me why I have no love for these mo’fuckin’ ho’s

Blood suckin’ succubuses, what the fuck is up with this?
I’ve tried in this department, but I ain’t had no luck with this
It sucks, but it’s exactly what I thought it would be
Like tryin’ to start over

I’ve got a hole in my heart for some kind of emotional roller coaster
Somethin’ I won’t go on, so you toy with my emotions, ho, it’s over
It’s like an explosion every time I hold ya, I wasn’t jokin’ when I told ya
You take my breath away, you’re a supernova and I’m a

I’m a space bound rocket ship and your heart’s the moon
And I’m aimin’ right at you, right at you…

I’ll do whatever it takes, when I’m with you I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain’t, with you I have zero strength
There’s no limit on how far I would go, no boundaries, no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we thinks
Gonna be that one and then once we get ‘em, it’s never the same?

You want ‘em when they don’t want you
Soon as they do, feelings change
It’s not a contest and I ain’t on no conquest for no mate
I wasn’t lookin’ when I stumbled onto you, musta been fate

But so much is at stake, what the fuck does it take?
Let’s cut to the chase
'Fore the door shuts in your face, promise me if I cave in and break
And leave myself open that I won’t be makin’ a mistake…


 

Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I been, I been prayin’ hard
Said no more counting dollars
We’ll be counting stars
Yeah, we’ll be counting stars

Notice me, take my hand
Why are we, strangers when
Our love is strong,
Why carry on without me?

Every time I try to fly I fall
without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And every time I see, you in my dreams
I see your face, it’s haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It’s the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And every time I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And every time I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you’re haunting me
I guess I need you baby…

Say something, I’m giving up on you.
I’ll be the one, if you want me to.
Anywhere, I would’ve followed you.
Say something, I’m giving up on you.

And I am feeling so small.
It was over my head
I know nothing at all.

And I will stumble and fall.
I’m still learning to love
Just starting to crawl.

Say something, I’m giving up on you.
I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you.
Anywhere, I would’ve followed you.
Say something, I’m giving up on you.

And I will swallow my pride.
You’re the one that I love
And I’m saying goodbye…

I’ll make it home again
I pray you’ll fall in love again
Just say you’ll entertain the possibility
I learned enough from my mistakes
Learned from all I didn’t say
Won’t you wait for me…

John Legend

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both
I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I’m letting go
It may not last but I don’t know
Just don’t know
If you don’t know
Then you can’t care
And you show up
But you’re not there
But I’m waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that’s warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
But misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I’m asleep
If you don’t know
Then you can’t care
And you show up
But you’re not there
But I’m waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Though we have not hit the ground
It doesn’t mean we’re not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you’re still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe

It hurts but it may be the only way…

I know the higher that I go, the harder to climb
But after that, the bigger the muscle and smarter the mind

I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence
Fear is such a weak emotion, that’s why I despise it
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you
Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to
I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you
Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few
My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling through…”

I never meant to start a war, I just wanted you to let me in…

I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy
I still can’t believe you found somebody new,
But I wish you the best, I guess

John Legend