Hmm what to write... Well I'm #24. All for #God #Positivity #Peace #Love #Harmony (all that good stuff)... I often find it difficult to make descriptions... I was never really good at summing myself up in a few words so maybe my blog will be able to do the describing for me. Readers, welcome :)

My will shall shape the future. Whether I fail or succeed shall be no man's doing but my own. I am the force; I can clear any obstacle before me or I can be lost in a maze. My choice; my responsibility; win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny

 

So I wait for you to call
And I try to act natural
Have you been thinking ’bout her or about me?

The further I go the closer I get back to you
I say I moved on ‘til I’m reminded of you
can somebody help me
help me get out of this circle
get out of this circle?

I can’t sleep at night when you are on my mind Bobby Womack’s on the radio singing to me: “If you think you’re lonely now”…Wait a minute this is too deep…

… I know everything that shine ain’t always gonna be gold

… I know everything that shine ain’t always gonna be gold

And I wasn’t looking for a promise or commitment
But it was never just fun, and I thought you were different

It sucks, but it’s exactly what I thought it would be
Like tryin’ to start over

I’ve got a hole in my heart for some kind of emotional roller coaster
Somethin’ I won’t go on, til you toy with my emotions… it’s over

…But so much is at stake, what does it take? Let’s cut to the chase ‘Fore the door shuts in your face, promise me if I cave in and break And leave myself open that I won’t be makin’ a mistake…

Am I wrong for thinking out the box from where I stay?
Am I wrong for saying that I choose another way?
I ain’t trying to do what everybody else doing
Just cause everybody doing what they all do
If one thing I know, I’ll fall but I’ll grow
I’m walking down this road of mine, this road that I call home

So am I wrong?
For thinking that we could be something for real?
Now am I wrong?
For trying to reach the things that I can’t see?
But that’s just how I feel…
Trying to reach the things that I can’t see

And if I had a pair of wings
I’d pick you up and fly you far away from here
And I could stay right by your side and keep you so near

And then I could save you from the troubles of the world
And all you’d have to pack is your heart to bring
And there we are, you and me
Flying on a big ol’ pair of wings

…knowing someone you love
don’t feel the same way about ya
memories, they soon delete…

…thought I took one step
I took two back
I’m not even close this time
And that’s a fact

And I realize…

If you ask me how I’m doing, I would say I’m doing just fine. I would lie and say that you’re not on my mind…

I can’t invite him again
‘Cause he’ll go from a lover to a fighter and I’ll fight him again
So it’s over, but I told him to come over
Again I’m wasting time
But he’s always on my mind
I can’t let him go
Oh, he’s not the best, but he’s all that I know…

If I was my heart 
I’d rather be restless 
The second I stop the sleep catches up and I’m breathless 
This ache in my chest 
As my day is done now 
The dark covers me and I cannot run now 
My blood running cold 
I stand before him 
It’s all I can do to assure him 
When he comes to me 
I drip for him tonight 
Drowning in me we bathe under blue light 

His face in my dreams seizes my guts 
He floods me with dread 
Soaked in soul 
He swims in my eyes by the bed 
Pour myself over him 
Moon spilling in 
And I wake up alone 

Space Bound

We touch, I feel a rush, we clutch, it isn’t much
But it’s enough to make me wonder what’s in store for us
It’s lust, it’s torturous, you must be a sorceress
'Cause you just did the impossible, gained my trust

Don’t play games, it’d be dangerous if you fuck me over
'Cause if I get burnt, I'ma show ya what it's like to hurt
'Cause I've been treated like dirt befo' ya
And love is “evol”, spell it backwards, I’ll show ya

Nobody knows me, I’m cold, walk down this road all alone
It’s no one’s fault but my own, it’s the path I’ve chosen to go
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion whatsoever, so
Don’t ask me why I have no love for these mo’fuckin’ ho’s

Blood suckin’ succubuses, what the fuck is up with this?
I’ve tried in this department, but I ain’t had no luck with this
It sucks, but it’s exactly what I thought it would be
Like tryin’ to start over

I’ve got a hole in my heart for some kind of emotional roller coaster
Somethin’ I won’t go on, so you toy with my emotions, ho, it’s over
It’s like an explosion every time I hold ya, I wasn’t jokin’ when I told ya
You take my breath away, you’re a supernova and I’m a

I’m a space bound rocket ship and your heart’s the moon
And I’m aimin’ right at you, right at you…

I’ll do whatever it takes, when I’m with you I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain’t, with you I have zero strength
There’s no limit on how far I would go, no boundaries, no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we thinks
Gonna be that one and then once we get ‘em, it’s never the same?

You want ‘em when they don’t want you
Soon as they do, feelings change
It’s not a contest and I ain’t on no conquest for no mate
I wasn’t lookin’ when I stumbled onto you, musta been fate

But so much is at stake, what the fuck does it take?
Let’s cut to the chase
'Fore the door shuts in your face, promise me if I cave in and break
And leave myself open that I won’t be makin’ a mistake…


 

Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I been, I been prayin’ hard
Said no more counting dollars
We’ll be counting stars
Yeah, we’ll be counting stars